fire is a beautiful sound

tam-o'-shan·ter tm-shntr)n.
A tight-fitting Scottish cap or braided bonnet, sometimes having a pompon, tassel, or feather in the center.

sara
v. to cheat on one's television programme.
"Hey, Grandma, wanna sara?"

sheets
adj. crude or famous.
"Dad is way more sheets than Frank."

sara sheets
v. to become old.
"I'm gonna go and sara sheets, my friend."

so anyways, now that i've followed the crowd on that one...

(last night at the mcdonalds drivethru)
lady - "that'll be $4.72 at the second window, please drive up."
me - "um... my car does not drive up."
*silence*
me - "i guess forward will have to do. what window am i supposed to go to?"
phil - *laughing* "the second one. weren't you listening?"
me - "i'm sorry, i was having a hard time paying attention to the window when this lady was telling me my car could defy the laws of physics."

sigh. a mind is a terrible thing to waste. this man i talked surveyed at work ended up being all pissed off because he doesn't like the president, (what this has to do with charter one bank i have no idea) and talked to me for over 40 minutes about public transportation and grocery stores and politicians. so now, at quarter to seven, when i should have roughly 40 completed surveys, i have 13. huzzah.\

i can't wait to move into the house next year. my mother is driving me crazy.

i miss sam. and anne mary.

i bought a new belly ring with a faerie on it.

we're having a pot luck at work tomorrow.

something else random.

recommence working...

well, i'm back. please, hold your excitement. had a lot of fun, but only one thing thats really worth mentioning.

went to the san francisco airport to catch my flight home, and when i went to check my bag at the USAir station outside the building.... this happened.

guy at USAir check station - are you flying alone?
me - yes
guy - how old are you?
me - uh... 20.
guy - where are you going?
me - philadelphia and then providence
guy - where?
me - philadelphia, pennsylvania, and then providence, rhode island.
guy - oh, international flights check in over there.
me - its not an international flight. i'm going to pennsylvania and then to rhode island. you know, in new england.
guy - england? yes, international flights over there.
me - no. NEW england. you know, massachusetts, connecticut, new hampshire...? rhode island. its a state. in the united states.
guy - *gives me suspicious look* do you have your flight information?
me - *hands over papers*
guy - *hands me tickets with another suspicious look*
me - *turns to dad* don't you think he should have passed 4th grade geography to work at an airline?

sigh. i heart people. like my boss, who called my house asking where i was on thursday even though i already told her i was going to be in california. whatever.

um...yeah. the wedding was wonderful, my sister looked amazing. pictures to follow when i get my laptop back from ram computers.

i'm leaving soon! soon being in 12 hours and 47 minutes. then i's be on a plane to philadelphia, where they make the best cream cheese ever. maybe i'll pick up some cream cheese while i'm there. and a bagel. i'll prolly want a bagel.

i'm buying myself some peanuts to take with me on the plane, since all they give you now are generic brand lunchables. now, don't get me wrong, i like lunchables. but they just aren't peanuts. *daria flashback* daria opens her bag of peanuts. "how did a whole goldfish get in here?" hahahaha. yes. anyways.

so. when i come back. weekend plans with sam and comer, with the strong possibility of a road trip down to see my kitty kat rizzo. other plans include: fabric shopping with leigh, another snake feeding (the last one, if anyone wants to see it), and work. everyone knows my position on work so i won't even bother restating it.

*side note* i absolutely COMMAND all of you to NEVER EVER get the answering machine that uses a series of annoying beeps instead of just one annoying beep. its a horrible idea. and i hate it.

ANYWAYS. i will miss everyone. and i'll post a picture of my sister in the wedding dress so you can all say "wow sara you are so talented. and your sister is gorgeous. she looks nothing like you." Thats because we have different mothers, biotch. *sticks out tongue* but she looks so pretty.

and in other news. i've thought a lot about myself and the situations in my life recently and made some decisions. i want to be single for a while. i realised that i spent so much time in relationships, i really don't know what to do with myself not that i'm alone. and i don't like that at all. so i'm going to spend a while on my own and figure myself out, figure out what i want in life and in a relationship before i get into another one thats going to fail. for now, i'm just going to enjoy my life. and get a really big teddy bear. ;-P

and i need to find a new job!!! preferably one i don't have to drive half an hour to get to. and i need to finish painting my faeries and making michaela's blanket and my scarves and rosemary's jewelry box and the little house and all those projects that i've just stopped working on. so thats what i'm going to do. and also see all my friends and have ben&jerry's sponsered slumber parties *wink wink samantha rae*

so there. thbbbbbt.

oh my god i'm going to fucking scream. this lady on the phone just fucking drove me crazy for 20 minutes asking me why i can't change the fact that the manager of the clifton branch of charter one bank in ohio won't let her cash checks with her mother's name on them!!!!! agggghhhhhhhh!!!!! i'm like "i can't do anything about it other than write it down on the survey. i have no power in ohio woman!!!" and she was still like "you should be able to fix that. why can't you fix it?" oh my god. i hate people. mrarrrr.

coin-operated boy
sitting on the shelf
he is just a toy
but i turn him on
and he comes to life
automatic joy
that is why i want
a coin-operated boy

made of plastic and elastic
he is rugged and long lasting
who could ever, ever ask for more?
love without complications galore
many shapes and weights to choose from
i will never leave my bedroom
i will never cry at night again
wrap my arms around him and pretend

coin-operated boy
all the other real
ones that i destroy
cannot hold a candle
to my new boy and i'll
never let him go
and i'll never be alone
and i'll never let him go
and i'll never be alone
go, and i'll never be alone
go, and i'll never be alone
go, and i'll never be alone
go, and i'll never be alone
not with my coin-operated boy

this bridge was written
to make you feel smittener
with my sad picture of girl getting bitterer
can you extract me
from my plastic fantasy?
i didn't think so
but i'm still convinceable
will you persist that after i bet you
a billion dollars that i'll never love you ?
and will you persist that after i kiss you
good-bye for the last time
will you keep on trying to prove it
i'm dying to lose it
i'm losing my confidence
i want it, i want it, i want it, i want it,
i want to, i want to, i want to, i want to,
i want you, i want you, i want you, i want you,

i want a, i want a, i want a, i want a
coin-operated boy

and if i had a star to wish on
for my life i can't imagine
any flesh and blood could be his match
i can even take him in the bath
coin-operated boy
he may not be real
experienced with girls
but i know he feels
like a boy should feel
isn't that the point?
that is why i want
a coin-operated boy
with a pretty
coin-operated voice
saying that he loves me
that he's thinking of me
straight and to the point
that is why i want
a coin-operated boy

working, working, working. how (un)fun. hey! helen brennan! do you have a relative named diane brennan who works in the phone bank in the citizens/davol building on soccanossett cross road in cranston? because if you do...... i work in the phone bank too. and if you guys were related, i could go up to her and be like 'hey, i know your (relation) helen. lets chat about her for about 15 minutes so i don't have to go back to my desk and do this job that i can't stand." yeah.

anyways. yeah. um. my sister's dress is almost done. thank god. it will be completely done tonight, and then i'm dropping it off for her on tuesday before i go to work. so that gives me tuesday to pack, and then wednesday to hang out with the wonderful miss leigh, and dustin too for a little bit if he's got time.

list of people i still have to see before school starts:
-VERONICA REINHART
-kat rizzo
-sam blasbalg
-emma tipple
-comer
-jessie schmidt
-chris lockard
-heidi haskell (boy have i got a surprise for you!)
-the connecticut crew
-anne mary
-angela&michaela

yes. and. um. yes. oh yeah. take that. yeah.

anyways. um... goodbye.

at work. bored out of my mind. but what can you do? if i didn't come to work, who would call people at 10 in the morning and annoy them with questions. i'm needed, dammit!!!

so i have today and tomorrow to finish my sister's dress. i'm kind of getting nervous. the straps are giving me quite a bit of trouble.

i'm so tired. i was woken up much too early this morning. so i keep switching to autopilot and telling everyone to have a great night, even though its not even 11 am yet.

wow!!! they just passed around a plastic bag with toys in it! huzzah! lets see, some tangram pieces, a maze, and.... a clear plastic box with bbs and plastic things in it. i don't quite know what to do with that last one. the tangrams are fun though.

*plays with tangrams for an hour*

oh yeah, forgot i was writing this. i think the hardest part of my job is trying to supress my yawns. i always have to yawn in the middle of my longest sentence, and it makes me crazy because i try to stifle it and the words sound funny.

wow. i think i just called dustin's aunt. oh well. my first day here, when i was doing the training section, i think i called one of bryna's relatives. then i called my high school art teacher last month. how silly.

this tangram is driving me crazy. the pieces are weird, and so there are only like, 6 variations of it. i keep thinking i found a new one, but its just one of the other ones reversed. sigh. i bet sam can understand how frustrating this is. *furiously attacks tangram* grrrrr...it needs to stop thwarting me.

i need a drink of water. too bad my break isn't for an hour. sigh. back to my tangram...

oh work, how i hate you. though today has just been an exceptionally bad day. but thankfully, i only have 20 minutes left before i can get off the dialer and have wrap up and go home. i have been pondering a lot of things this week. i brought a notebook with me to write it all down, and i've used quite a bit of paper trying to understand myself. so far, it hasn't worked. i feel kind of like winona ryder in girl, interrupted. which, by the way, is in the $5 bin at walmart in case anyone is interested.

my sister's wedding dress is almost finished. i just have to run to the fabric store tomorrow, and then maybe 2 or 3 more hours of work, and it should be allllllll done. thank god. i love my sister, but her idea of a deadline is the same as my idea of a stop sign. she gave me the fabric this past friday, and her wedding is this coming saturday. we're flying to california on thursday morning, and i get to see the wonderful paul for the rest of thursday!!!!! mad excited about that. friday morning we're driving up the coast to mendocino, staying there until sunday, then driving back to san francisco so i can catch my flight home early monday morning. i have i think a 3 hour stopover in philadelphia. remind me to bring a big book. i already finished HP6, so i need a new one. maybe i'll stop at barnes and noble on my way home from work tonight.

I MISS ANNE MARY CAMARA AND ANGELA AND MICHAELA DEGAITAS!!!!!!!!!!!!! i felt that needed to be said. and it needed to be said in capslock. i muss call them soon and do something with them. i think angela would like to meet luigi and rj, the pythons i'm babysitting for melissa and rich. i think she would love them actually. and anyone else who would like to come play with a couple of ball pythons, my number is 7141962. i'll post pictures of them when i find the usb cable for my camera. they're so cute.

anyways, it's almost time for me to head off the dialer, so i guess i'll get going. have fun everyone!!!

be sorted @ nimbo.net

someone needs to call me soon to do something. i am completely losing my mind. I hate going home and don't want to be there. I get out of work at nine every night except fridays i dont work. so please, contribute to the sanity of a girl living with her mother, and give me someplace else to be.

HI!!! guess what? I'm still alive!!!!! but my stupid computer is broken again. i can't believe it, i work with all kinds of electronics in the theatre but i keep breaking my computer. explain that. anyways. i'm babysitting melissa and rich's ball pythons this month while they're in california, and i'm falling in love. i want one so bad. but then i realise that they're living with me next year and i'll still get to play with the snakes.

oh sam, you'll appreciate this. if you're back from greece yet. helen and erin and other uri theatre people will prolly get a giggle out of it too. I met a kid down in connecticut, and if i didn't see his face, i could have sworn i was talking to joel messier. same presonality and attitude and everything. it was scary. his name is joey k. i called him joel like 6 times. that's my story. ha.

anyways, yeah. i don't like people enough for this job. i get so aggravated at some of these customers that it takes quite a lot of willpower not to snap at them and tell them to shut up and that i don't care if the checks they ordered had little puppies on them instead of little kitties, grown men should not have animals on their checks!!! sigh. but on the plus side, i get to color in coloring books and play with playdough and little koosh ball dinosaurs and stuff. thats fun.

oh well. other than that my summer has been good. there's been lots of stuff going on lately, some of it is good. i just miss everybody. my mother is driving me crazy and i CANNOT wait to move into the house next year. sigh.

until then....

hi, my name is sara, i'm calling from charter one bank. we're conducting a thiry second survey about customer satisfaction, and i'd like to ask you one or two questions.......and then i'd like you to shoot me in the head...

don't worry...

i'm still alive.

not that any of you were worried in the first place. but whatever. so, sara is looking at a 2 job summer again, though this time its going to be a lot more manageable. working for citizens from 5-9 on monday-thursday, and hopefully 8 hour shifts at filene's on friday staurday and sunday. so if anyone wants to hang out, ive got most mornings off, or if you want to hang out on a weekend, let me know early in the week and i'll take the morning shift. so yeah. thats how its going to go. making a few trips to CT before mid-july to see brent before he leaves, and then cali at the end of july for caryn's wedding. and the week before that i'm at the beach house with momma pillows. and um... thats all i think. saving up for the house of awesomeness next year! oh man. that is going to be so much fun. i can't wait. and someone needs to remind me to get my parking sticker. or i'll forget. thats all. 401.714.1962. don;t forget about me.

i made really good chicken tonight. ohhhh. sooooo good. and then phil and i went to applebee's to get dessert. because incredibly, there was no chocolate to be found in the sheets' houshold today. so very unlike us.

"Dammit! you offered up my egg roll to the dead!"

"Well, the fact that you're fucking hot is the icing on the cake. and, the first thing you see on the cake is the icing, cuz thats on the outside"

"i want to watch her take advantage of you. it would be fun, like a field trip to a museum"

hahahahaha.

Star Wars Horoscope for Cancer

You may whine at times, but you've developed a thick hard shell (like that of a crab). You are strong willed and persistent - until you get what you want. You never shy away from a fight, even when things get dangerous. Mentally sharp, you are starting to master the elements of mind manipulation. Star wars character you are most like: Luke Skywalker

this one's a long one...

Your #1 Match: ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

Your #2 Match: INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #3 Match: ESFP

The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others. A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic. You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally. You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

Your #4 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal. A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

Your #5 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

American Cities That Best Fit You:

60% Boston

60% Miami

60% San Diego

55% Austin

50% Atlanta

( quiz )

i took that quiz a year ago. same results. not bad.

( one more )

here's a hint: if you want me to do something a certain way, you should actually tell me to do it. don't just complain to other people when it doesn't happen and not tell me. thanks.